Self Forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hide from myself

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to think and believe I am less than and inferior to thoughts, feelings and emotions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be ashamed of myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be disgusted of myself and the choices I have made

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear doing something that I have never done before such as stand up as all as one as equal because I might fail

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that failure actually exists

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to beLIEve the mind is who I am

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear facing myself and the past and I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to have experienced myself as shame and regret

I am not past, I am not future, I no longer accept or allow the past or future to direct me - I am here, I direct me, I stand, I move self, I am the directive principle of myself

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise that shame and regret is not who I am, but the mind consciousness system

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to beLIEve that the mind has control over me and my actions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give my power away to the mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the mind for what I have accepted and allowed, I see, I remain here as breath every moment

I MOVE - I DIRECT - I STAND - I AM HERE

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use shame and a regret as an excuse for not standing up as who I am as all as one as equal every moment of breath

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be shameful of having sex with more then one man

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become exited and get a rush when having sex for the first time with a new partner

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become addicted to the rush of having sex with a new partner

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel powerful for being able to have sex with any man I wanted to

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse my body

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel "good" about myself when I had sex with someone new because that must have meant that I am pretty, sexy, good in bed, charming, clever, strong, creative and adored

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to play games with the minds of men and women to get what I want

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate others

I forgive myself that have accepted and allowed myself to masturbate to pictures in the mind

I forgive myself that I have not realised that by and through the "energy" of masturbation I have caused rape and molastation in this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to the men I was with in my past

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only feel secure in myself it a man is there to validate me by saying I am pretty, smart, funny, sweet, friendly, a good cook

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be definable I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to to desire, want or need the affection of a man as a form of validation about who I am

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear standing up and exposing myself

forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that the ego of the mind is who I am and I have not control over it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wear certain clothing or make up to attract a "partner"

I forgive myself that I have not realised that by having a partner I am in separation with myself as all as one as equal

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the men I have dated in the past by considering that I lost them or they lost me which in turn shows that I was actually in seperation with them as myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to beLIEve that I can lose something or someone, or someone can lose me, I am here, I see - I am everything

I forgive myself for not realising that I am everything and that if I want to see a change in this world I must move myself as I am all things, I am this world and I apply self forgiveness as all as one as equal I diligent and I move, I breath, I stand, I direct, I clarify

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have shame about sexual acts I have participated in

I forgive myself for not realising that by participating in these sexual acts that I have effected the world as me and feed the mcs

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be a huge part of fucking up this world as myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consider myself as a fuck up

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to date men that had a girlfriend to simply please myself

I forgive myself that I have not realised that by allowing and accepting myself to postpone self forgiveness that I have accepted and allowed myself to be powered and ruled by the mind consciousness system. I stand, I direct, I move me!

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear self honesty

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear myself and what I might find

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only date men that are extremely
"handsome" and "well kept" and have job/money/status and are in control of themselves and their friends

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I have only dated men that are leaders, thus

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give my power away to men so that I will not be the one to blame because I do not take responsibility for my actions but rather blame it on the person who is apparently "in control"

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that self control is dependent on a specific resource of the brain

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that self control can diminish
I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that I am able to ‘temporarily' ‘lose' control

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realise that when I ‘lose control' and ‘give into' the impulsions of temptations – I have allowed myself to go ‘back into the mind' and that I as who I am was not here, aware, in and as the moment

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that I am able to ‘lose' anything even control

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from self control

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to accept myself as self control

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to beLIEve that I am able to fail at self control in the face of temptation

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted temptation to have power over me and power of me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use men as a tool to make my decisions for me rather then me moving self every moment as breath

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be seen as someone that must be "together" "confident" "smart" "interesting" "lovable"

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that love is something that is separate from me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look everywhere other then within myself as love to find love

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that being in a relationship or marriage or having a child is what true love is

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lie about how I am or what I have done in my past to other beings so I can be accepted by them

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lie to myself about who I am and what I have accepted and allowed myself to do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive myself to be in completion with other women

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that if I do not have the "best" hair, make up, clothing, music, shoes, weed, sex, body, smile that I must lack something

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in duality/polarity - Best/Worst, I am here, I see I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to be directed by the polarity equations of the mind as: strength and weakness and failure and success

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my self forgiveness or judged that I have referred to the website as assistance in applying self forgiveness, thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that the self forgiveness I have rewritten is invalid unless it comes directly from myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to beLIEve that I can lack abilities

I am source

I am here, as all as one as equal every moment of breath
I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that in suppressing emotions and feelings: I am strong and I have courage

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to beLIEve that lack actually exists

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realise that lack and failure only exist of the mind – I do not accept and allow lack and failure – this is not who I am

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that I have limited resources to control myself

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realise that the limitation of resources only exist of the mind – I am infinitely stable and constant

I do not accept and allow limitation within me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to beLIEve that I am subject to limitation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to beLIEve that limitation actually exists

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to beLIEve that I am able to run out of resources

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realise that only the mind is able to run out of resources – life is the infinite expression of who I am within and as oneness and equality

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to live and apply self control in every moment

I am my directive principle – not the brain

I am my directive principle – not the mind

I am sound

I am silence

I am here

Is the word coincidence a coincidence?

No not that either. None of this is a coincidence

Wow, somehow I am able to make another post here, the strangest thing happened on Desteni forum I was reading Adele's comment to Kim's SF and it said I started my blog here Alex, and then I clicked on it to see Adele's blog and it is mine not her's and I do not require a pw, I was attempting to log in for the last week or so but it kept saying my pw was invalid or something or my email was invalid who knows. but this is fucking cool :)
" a miracle" LOL! J/K

So thanks Adele, not sure how that happened but still cool. I suppose I have been signed in this entire time. Perhaps that's how come I was unable to sign in, LOL!

How interesting how these "coincidences" happen, that brings up a point I was realising about myself and coincidences, I used to say coincidence is not a "kosher" word. Well unfortunately it is not and until I realised that stopping the mind is the only way to stop this preordained predestined "life" I am supposedly "living"

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be in total self deception and self dishonesty to the point of having a belief in a god that was apparently greater or outside of me somewhere looking down on me from heaven and watching my "every move" and creating certain situation's so that I can be closer to "him" through people and situations.

Is it a coincidence that beings refer to god as a him or a he, no not that either. I used to say well you know god is not a male or female but we refer to god as him because in the English language we just do that? Strange. But then again the messiah was "apparently" a man simply because in those times men/Rabbis were the only people that would be taken seriously enough with the "word of god"
WOW! Look at that all those things I did and said to myself and others as a system in a system to justify why the bible and the teachings of the bible are apparently true. It was all because I was looking outside of myself for myself.
I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to be self honest
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to require a being higher or greater then me to feel that I am here for a "apparent" purpose
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise myself as all as one as equal thus I forgive myself that I did not realise that purpose is a construct of the mind consciousness system in itself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create so many religions or beliefs in this world to stay in seperation of myself

now I have opened up a whole can of worms/dishonesty
even worms are not such a cool expression as they are an expression of death and death is also a construct and a design to keep us further enslaved.
I am here being here is here is here, here is not somewhere or overthere or a place or allocation of some type it is who I am I am here every moment as breath.
The breath ahhh, wow, breathing is so cool so is self forgivenss, what a very special realisation

Is the word coincidence a coincidence? No not that either. None of this is a coincidence

Today I have been reading other peoples SF as myself, and wow, I have realised so much and also I even realise now why Desteni members "misspell" realise I had an idea that it must be from the africaans language LOL!
Now it REAL IS e what real is. fantastic.