SF - Menstration/Specialness

So the nuva ring is out and things within my body are no longer going bazerko, also I have not had trouble with sleep or racing thoughts. Whew, that sucked I decided to do SF on not wanting to get a period in the first place and I came to so many realizations about it after all. I was defining myself as less then men and inferior to men because of experiencing myself menstruating

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel sorry for myself rather then taking self responsibility and applying self forgiveness immediatly

I forgive myself that I have defined myself as a fuck up because I did not stand up

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to stay as the definition of shame and regret for using the nuva ring as an easy way out

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to stay in a state of "ugh" "I cant" instead of standing up as all as one as equal in every moment of breath

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself and perceive these thoughts of inferiority and victimization as real and are who I am

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to trust myself

I forgive myself that I have desired for an event or person to move me rather then me being within and as self movement

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to honor myself as all as one as equal every moment of breath

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to experience a period because then that defines me as less then because I am a women and I am not able to control it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to control my bodily functions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel inferior to men for having to experience a period

I forgive myself that I have considered myself inferior to men because I have a period every month and they don't

I forgive myself that I have defined myself as a women

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seperate myself from myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel sorry for all women who have to experience the pain of menstruation and child birth and men don't so they are apparently more lucky and dominate

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define blood as dirty

I forgive myself that I have accepted the idea of periods being dirty because of what I learned about women being as filthy rags in the bible and to not even sleep in the same bed/room with a man when on a period because it is unclean

I forgive myself that I have defined myself as unclean during menstruation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define women as being punished for having to feel pain when menstruating and when giving child birth

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define men as superior to women and that women are inferior to men because of menstruation and pain during child birth

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in duality/polarity men/women superior/inferior

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hate my body and its functions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel insecure when on my period

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be angry at men because they don't h ave to spend time and money on things like menstruation or child birth

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel anger towards men because if they experience having children they do not have to have stretch marks on their belly/legs or breasts and women do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define stretch marks on stomach/breasts/legs as ugly and unattractive

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have feared the pain of child birth my entire life

I forgive myself that I never considered the pain a child must feel during birth

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge women who have children and are unable to take care of them as selfish and fucked up

I forgive my self that I have accepted and allowed myself to be jealous of men because I have defined their body's as easier to keep "in shape" and nicer because they don't have to get stretch marks and men can more easily find love and a relationship if they have a child and do not stay with the mother of the child because their body still looks like it did before a child was born

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to relationships I have or don't have

I forgive myself that I have defined beings as less then other beings if they are unable to keep a marriage or relationship because apparently something must be wrong with them like bad at sex, or ugly, fat, or insecure, bad father, bad mother or irritating or less then beings in a relationship

I forgive myself that I did not realise that relationships that are formed with love as glue are an illusion and a way to further keep beings enslaved to the mcs

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to inherit this way of thinking from my mother because she always damned men for not having to deal with stretch marks

the mother matrix is something I realise I have but I do not understand how to deal with it and how to appropriately apply SF for it to release the system in me, here is something I found on the OF on the front page by VENO

http://desteni.co.za/Osho/veno23.htm


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to beLIEve I could control feelings by using a vaginal insert

I forgive myself that I have wanted and needed to always be in control of myself my body and the beings around me to feel secure

I forgive myself that I have defined control as self trust

I forgive myself that I have defined myself as rebellious and out of control because if I am out of control that really means I am in control of my surroundings and situations because in my apparent belief in rebellion as control

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to boss others around to let them know that they can not fuck with me so do not even try it

I forgive myself that when I listen to people talk I just dont listen actually and I wait for them to be quiet so I can tell them why they are wrong and I am right

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place value on my opinions only and everyone else is wrong and if they do not see it how I see it then they are fucked up

I forgive myself that I have caused this seperation

Thanks Leila for sharing the SF you wrote regarding Ego of Mind as Special I do that same shit and I stop

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define who I am as greater then or much more special then anyone else

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that I am indeed special because many people have said that to me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to percieve that I am way more insightful then most people

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have beLIEved in religion that their would be 144,000 jews that would save the world from the devil and I am one of the called out assembly to help save the world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see others as inferior to me but just that they do'nt know it and its ok cuz I am a "nice" superior/special person so its cool

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to beLIEve that because I am under the birth sign aquarius that I am special and unique and their are only very few people that are as special as myself and that even then they still had a different kind of special so I am apparently super special over all

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive this ego of specialness as myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that one day I will speak to a huge crowd of people and help to show them the truth of themselves

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire for beings to refer or call me special

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wear certain clothes to stand out from a crowd so others would then see me as the apparent special person I have defined myself as

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate others to define me as special

I forgive myself that I had always looked for ways to wow and impress people to confirm just how special I am

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be the center of attention

I forgive myself that I have defined myself as the black sheep in my "family" so that people will again see and define me as special and set apart

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the way I dance as special

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be the first person people call to hang out with because I have defined myself as cooler company then anyone else

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be seen as super cool and smart

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the music I listen to as way better then what others listen to

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define my taste in music and food and clothes and material items as way better then anyone else's

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear beings always want to fuck with me or hurt me so I must be in control so they won't see the fear I have