Wednesday, May 27, 2009


A topic/point opened up on the desteni forum and that topic is:

One word that binds us all

Who have I used in my life as a form of stimulation Parents, Family, Women, Men, Children, Teachers, Scholars, Doctors, Therapists, Astrologers, 'strangers', Every single person I come into contact with - I look for a form of stimulation and if a being do not stimulate me according to my programming then I ignore them and am not interested in anything they say or do because I am not being feed I am not feeding on the energy because it does not suit my programming this is in deed vamporism that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive is myself a person who feeds from one being to another constantly looking for my next form of stimulation so I do not face myself.
One sense to another or many senses at the same time and no one of those senses within this particular point is not common sense.

Touch, Taste, Smell, Sound, Sight

Parents - I have feed of off the stimulation my parents have provided my mind consciousness system:

- through the acceptance of me= this stimulates me because it provides me with a sense of purpose - and with this sense of purpose I see that I am stimulated through motivation a motivation to be all I can be for my parents so they can be proud of me and so I can prove to them that their acceptance of me of validated

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feed the ego of the mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek stimulation from my parents through acceptance of me because I have defined who I am as inferior to a feeling, an emotion, a perception of love through a feeling of purpose through a feeling of acceptance because I have not accepted or allowed myself to love myself and accept myself unconditionally.

-through advising me again this is a form of the inferior/superior construct of polarity

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be polarity personified.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the polarity of the mcs a system that is not who I really am but what I have allowed myself to be and become due to accepted and allowed self dishonesty

i forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in self dishonesty, self hate

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe, and perceive that because my parents created me through stimulation at some point that they are indefinitely superior to me in all ways and that the advice that they give to me is truth, valid and for my own 'good' because I have defined myself as inferior to an opinion that in fact destroys what is real what is actually in this reality.

through punishing me

through teaching me, through yelling at me, through controlling me, through loving me, through laughter, through hugging me, through kissing me,through affection, through supporting me, through buying me things, through sharing with me,through fighting with me, through praising me, through directing me, through accepted and allowed participation of anger, hate, resentment, sadness, through disciplining me, through providing food for me, through giving me money, through providing me with happiness even if it is an illusion, through nurturing me,through a belief in god, through encouragement, through

Be back in a while gotta do some work